purpose driven mothering

I began reading the book…but didn’t finish….A Purpose Driven Life. I love the title. Should there be a book titled Purpose Driven Mothering? I haven’t had many lows in a long while. I am blessed with healthy children, a kind and loving husband, and a fairly easy life. I say easy because I don’t work outside my home, we live comfortably (more than comfortably), and we don’t struggle to meet the basic needs of our family. Nonetheless, I am struggling. I struggle everyday to mother with purpose. I have written about this before and find myself writing about it again.

These little men of mine are true gifts. I cannot put into words my understanding of the task at hand. The task of raising them and loving them. I sometimes miss the days right after they were born. When I could hold them, if I wanted, for hours and hours. I remember just staring at them in amazement and awe. How could this little guy really be…here? These days those moments feel like they were in a different lifetime. (This may also be why some women have more babies. But I digress!) These days I feel like I don’t have any answers. My brain knows that you can’t be a perfect mother, that kids are not perfect, and NO ONE has ALL the answers. I know that intellectually, but my heart does not feel that. I am desperate to do right by them. Although not logical, I take most of their shortcomings as personal failures. Again I know this in my head as crazy; it is my heart that has a hard time believing.

As the season changes here in Seattle, it has turned damp, gray, and bleak. At the moment, that is how I feel. The joyous, boisterous holidays are right around the corner. I know my spirits will lift. I know that in the weeks to come my boys will enter new phases, maybe ones I am better equipped to manage. I know that my life is good and that these boys are true treasures. I know that one day I will look back at THIS time and think about how simple and lovely my troubles were. I know these things in my head….I just need my heart to believe them as well.

One Response to “purpose driven mothering”

  1. merrilee says:

    My dear friend–you are so wonderful to have these worries. Your little boys are blessed to have a mother that worries about parenting them on a daily basis and takes her non-paid, non-thanked job so seriously. You are great at everything to attempt to do and mothering is no different. Give yourself some slack!!

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